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I kept it from buddies and relatives as long as I could, but they knew something was wrong. Months later , the breaking point came and that was time to confess that I relapsed not only to those that I like the most, but to myself also.
Life was as perfect as one could ask for, till age 35 came along. That was when my life appeared to fall apart, and alcohol became the only thing that made it all depart. All the discomfort and guilt and regret were gone with a little Jack and Jim as my companions of the evening.
Soon Jack and Jim got a little too close, and I was unable to maintain without a drink every minute or two. I adored the taste, the sensation that I had, and not needing to face my Problems. After 5 years of being a full-on alcohol, I sought help. I went to therapy center, learning the way to handle those things in life better and without alcohol. Life was mine again, and for 10 years, it might remain lovely.
Together with the recession came getting rid of the position I had spent my life devoted to for the last 17 years. No earnings, mortgage due, bills piling high, and no where to turn, alcohol was the very first thing that popped into my mind. I fought it for so very long. I actually did. Had I picked up the telephone and requested help, it possibly would not have happened. But I wasn't thinking clearly.
It did not take as long this time to get help. I found a program that found a job for me after programme completion, and have been sober for an excellent 5 years. It was tough. Psychologically, physically, emotionally. But now I know what to do and where to turn instead of resort to the past that does nothing except cause more Problems.
Life was as perfect as one could ask for, till age 35 came along. That was when my life appeared to fall apart, and alcohol became the only thing that made it all depart. All the discomfort and guilt and regret were gone with a little Jack and Jim as my companions of the evening.
Soon Jack and Jim got a little too close, and I was unable to maintain without a drink every minute or two. I adored the taste, the sensation that I had, and not needing to face my Problems. After 5 years of being a full-on alcohol, I sought help. I went to therapy center, learning the way to handle those things in life better and without alcohol. Life was mine again, and for 10 years, it might remain lovely.
Together with the recession came getting rid of the position I had spent my life devoted to for the last 17 years. No earnings, mortgage due, bills piling high, and no where to turn, alcohol was the very first thing that popped into my mind. I fought it for so very long. I actually did. Had I picked up the telephone and requested help, it possibly would not have happened. But I wasn't thinking clearly.
It did not take as long this time to get help. I found a program that found a job for me after programme completion, and have been sober for an excellent 5 years. It was tough. Psychologically, physically, emotionally. But now I know what to do and where to turn instead of resort to the past that does nothing except cause more Problems.
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